Well, here I am...I haven't put anything else here recently, mostly because I've had a busy life the past few days. Dinner with grandparents, meetings at work, shopping, etc., etc. Lots of crap to fill the already minimal time in my life.

You may ask, why hasn't Derek put anything in 11111001111 about himself? Well, chances are, if you've found this, and are interested in me, you'll track across to my personal page, but now that I think of it, there isn't a lot of "straight from the brain" things over there. I mean, you are interested enough in me, wetting your palate with these odd techo-rantings of some guy that you ran across parusing a web ring or something. Who is this Derek guy?

Well, I'm your everyday, mid twenties guy, with relationship problems, marital problems, a kid (which is not a problem), a full time job, a VCR, a fishtank, and lots of books. I really like the Big King sandwich and the french fries from Burger King, I spend most Thursday evenings roaming the thrift shops for bargains, blah blah blah...

Is that really what you people want to hear from me? Bland statistics of life. If you _truly_ are interested in knowing me, those are good things to learn (and by al means contact me if that's the case), but you casual surfers aren't here looking for that.

You're probably looking for smut, strangeness, soap-operas of real life that give such wonderful ratings to "real life" shows like Cops, the Real World, Sally Jesse Raphael, and innumerable imitators of true-crime stories and rants about personal strife.

But do you really want to hear about that? Do you want to hear about the odd sex crap in my life? Hear me complain about problems between me and my girlfriend? Briten your life by reading about how horrible my life is? You make me sick!

Well, I read those things, too...there's a strange attraction to those sort of things.

But I'm not a person comfortable with opening myself up like that. Besides the neuroses which attract people like you to pages like this, the creator of the page has a desire to be heard. The people writing the stories seem to need to make their life more important by presenting it to people like you to read, and you make it important by seeking it out and ingesting the bits of personal life that the author puts there. It's a masturbatory system, and it seems to work OK.

So, let's back up -- am I changing the subjct, to avoid typing anything relevant?

Yes.

Am I using too many rhetorical questions?

Well, you've learned a few things about me; my attraction to certain fast foods, my dislike of telling personal things to the general public. After not too long, I'll probably become more open to writing about minute details of my life, so keep checking back.

This entry is actually a start -- me talking about myself, with minimal bitching about the society that we live within. Progress? Probably. If you people really want me to enter a 'what I did today' entry every day, let me know, and I'll do it. You need to keep coming back, though -- if I'm going to get the satisfaction from making my life more important than it really is, then you need to read it.